Good morning and hello beautiful beings!
As always, I hope you are doing well; That you are happy and healthy wherever you are.
I’ve been taking a much needed social media break and I have to say, it has been quite amazing. The inspiration behind this was a need to get away from the norm of constant scrolling, judgement, fear, and comparison. I think it’s quite common for social media to have a huge impact on our mental health and well being. Though it is full of information and wonderful humans who desire to connect, it can also be heavily influential on our energy throughout the day and ultimately our lives. I was finding myself wrapped in what others were wanting me to perceive and felt very disconnected from myself and very hopeless for the future.
The final push for me was watching The Social Dilemma on Netflix. If you haven’t seen this powerful documentary, I suggest giving it a try. Without spoiling too much of the film, there was a moment that they reflected on what the “truth” is. How social media is often filled with billions of truths. Depending on whose profile you are viewing or story you’re watching, you will get a hit of what their perception of the world is. So we are consuming so many truths at a time and often forgetting to make space for our own. When I heard this, I was in shock and a wave of sadness hit me. I looked out at the sky and just started to cry. It feels like ages since I have truly listened to what the spirit of the earth was asking instead of others. I realized a lot of my disconnection was coming from my lack of presence with the life I am living. I realized in the thick of all of this, I was losing my own truth, my own eyes looking up. Isn’t that what our sentient lives are? A perception of what this experience is? Of what we make of our time here on earth?
I normally believe in humanity, and I felt disappointed and let down. It was becoming hard for me to see the light in others and instead see the darkness. It was causing me to have panic attacks at an alarming rate I’ve never experienced. For my phobia to resurface, for my depression to settle in like a cloud I could not clear. It made so much sense as to why my mental health was at an all time low. The double standards, the constant, “CAN YOU BELIEVE THEY DID THIS?”, “WEAR YOUR FUCKING MASK!” I am tired of this truth. Of this constant giving in to separation which is what they want. Yes, we are in the middle of a pandemic, but is it really beneficial to read about it every single day, to the point we are afraid of nature and humanity? And in fact live our lives criticizing and ridiculing one another instead of holding each other up? When the very reason we exist at all is because of connection and love and have lost that? Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying we need to cut our relationship from the world or what we don’t want to see, but if it becomes so overwhelming to the point (like me) where we are cradled in fear over doing the things that bring us joy, that light our fire, that keep us from leaving this world better than we found it, is it necessary?
During this break which has only been about a month, I have loved more. I have awaken my soul again. I have laughed. I have spent more time looking into the eyes of my beloved. I have spent more time with my pets. I wrote up a solid plan, and have applied for grants for my coastal cleanup and marine life rescue dreams. I have seen how amazing my home is. I have read and filled my mind with information my soul was calling me to. I have been able to understand my strengths, so I may choose how I can utilize them for human rights. I have put my feet in the sand so much more. I took a spontaneous trip with my love and best friends to Portland. The new Trevor Hall album came out so I have been able to release the old story through that. I have come back to the source. I have come back to MY truth. A truth that believes that we are going to get through this together. A truth I will never stop fighting for. A truth that calls me every day to the earth and leaves me in awe and gratitude that this is the life I get to live. My phobia is nearly a whisper again, my sleep has never been better, my anxiety is at an all time low. And I am just so very grateful for that. I am hopeful for the future and love the present.
I am not saying I am any better or that what I am doing is the truth or that it will work for every soul. But I ask that you ask yourself, is this making me happy? Is where I am at this time and space what I want to echo to the future? Is this the energy I want to send out to humanity? To the planet? To all sentient life? Being glued to a phone while you float through the cosmos on a planet that is one of its kind? And missing the one human experience you will get in this body? Is it worth wasting our time on a phone when we could be out there, seeing one another for the radiance we are? You are one of a kind. The universe had to fuse billions of miracles to have you wrapped on the earth.
I don’t know when or if I will ever be back on social media, so if you have my number, you know where I’ll be. And I will always pop back up on justlovejustlight every now and again. I know I have probably missed a whole lot and that’s okay, because I can send you so much more love from this place. I visualize you happy and well.
More than anything, I want you to know that you are worth so much. We are all worth so much. And I send you my love every day that you are happy, healthy, abundant, and well. And that you open your eyes to greet this plane of existence. It is so incredible. It is so rare. And there is a planet whose heart is beating in unison with yours. Don’t give up.